Driving While Under the Influence of Audio Hallucinations.

Just a quick update and describing something that happened today.


We're southward bound again (further south than Drake and Tikka.) and we got to see the storm that came by. Apparently there was a tornado warning, but there's wasn't a tornado where we were.


So anyway, describing what I experienced today.


I was driving along when I suddenly hear something hit the top of my car and I swerve a little on the road and pull over. I then get out and look around, there was nothing. I see a cop car and it pulls up behind me. 'fuck... just great...' I thought. He walks over and says "Now why did you swerve like that and why did you pull over son?" I fucking hate when people call me son... I told him I thought I heard a weird sound from my car, it made me jump and that's why I swerved and I pulled over to see if I could tell what was wrong. "Have you been drinking?" god damn it... no. I told him such. "I want you to go ahead and take a sobriety test." Well I did, passed with flying colors. He let me go, but god damn it these audio hallucinations are annoying...


We SaW a FoReSt ToDaY...


StUpId FoReSt...


It LoOkEd So DaRk...


I bEt It'D lOoK bEtTeR iF iT wErE uP iN fLaMeS...


SINcerely,
Raz / D

Several hours and a few hundred miles away...

And now we're taking a break. We've been heading west and south. He says he knows someone in Oklahoma. (Hey maybe we could even stop by Anonymous's place for a bit, say hi, and be on our way. X3 )


No sign of Him, and His voice has been getting quieter... good sign. The place we're staying at tonight is a cute little bed and breakfast, apparently Tom already knows the owners. They seem like a nice couple. (They're in their late sixties I think.)


... Yeah... Sorta been not mentioning this... but the audio hallucinations have been going on this entire time... and god they're weird... While we were driving a long I could have sworn I could hear something in the trunk. I even convinced him to pull over and when I checked, it was empty... They're really bad right now... Like I'm just sitting in bed and I can hear claws dragging against the bottom of my bed... and breathing... really heavy breathing...


SINcerely,
Raz

Last night...

Wasn't nearly as bad as the night before. My audio hallucinations decided to behave and keep themselves to a minimum, which was a nice change, and Leslie didn't see or hear anything unusual while he was patrolling the hall. around six Rachel woke up and Leslie and I got some sleep. I just woke up about thirty minutes ago.


Feeling much better... though... Rachel isn't looking so good... but she's taking some medicine and taking the normal precautions for when you're getting sick. So hopefully... it's not... you know...


SINcerely,
Raz

Woke up... don't feel right...

I woke up just a little bit ago... something feels off... not just the noises... something else... I'm pretty sure it has something to do with Him... so I'm going to stay up for now...


I can hear Rachel coughing... I swear... if He takes her...


I'd patrol the house... but I'm afraid to leave her alone...


God damned hallucinations! Sounds like someone is saying "You can't save her... it's over... give up..." right next to me... No, no one is there. God... now even my hallucinations are being negative...


... I think I can hear something outside... I'm gonna check the window and make sure it's locked fully.


SINcerely,
Raz

Rachel and something else...

We finished the pasta and are watching TV right now. It's weird doing something so normal after all that's happened to me... It's nice.


She's asleep right now so she won't be seeing this probably, but I just have to say; she's really pretty... I'm just so happy that she allowed me to stay here with all that's been going on...


Fucking audio hallucinations... I can hear them even over the damn TV... god... I need to get more of my medication soon... Right now it sounds like someone is at the window to the right of the TV. I'm looking at it right now and it's empty... no one... not even one of His husks... fucking hallucinations... Earlier while we were eating I thought I could hear very faint screaming coming from upstairs, like someone was trapped in the attic, but no other noises were accompanying it... no banging... no thumping around... nothing... just screaming... If I could be rid of these hallucinations I would in a second...


SINcerely,
Raz

damned audio hallucinations...

I ran out of my meds a few days ago actually... but they're just starting to get worse now... God... I keep hearing crap that I know isn't there... I can't sleep... this sucks...


I feel so sick... and those noises... god... some of them are actually really disturbing... like I thought I heard a heart beat... through the wall... like the whole wall was alive... *shudders* yeah... it sucks to have audio hallucinations... Oh another fun one was the sounds of claws dragging their way across the ceiling... ON THE CEILING! Like on my side of the ceiling, not the floor above me. Yeah... and I keep hearing talking... and because of all of this slender crap it's focused around that... so disturbing...


I'm just so tired... so very tired...


SINcerely,
Raz

Since I'm not going to sleep...

I thought I'd let everyone just know, almost right up front, some more... interesting things about me.


My mother is bipolar and has active schizophrenia. She's able to keep it under control with her medication, and it does a pretty good job. I, myself, do not have either of those... really. I have what I like to call, but don't know if this is the proper term, audio hallucinations. I sometimes image hearing people talking, or I might hear a sound and, in reality, nothing happened and no one spoke. On top of that I have AD- Oh look a shiny thing! But yeah. I just thought that my readers should know that before it becomes an issue and I have to drop it like a freaking bomb on all of you. (however many of you there are beyond Sabrina I don't know.)


Before anyone tries to suggest that "hey maybe that has something to do with your powers! You know, you can hear people who aren't there, but are somewhere else!" No, it's not that. It really is just audio hallucinations, through and through. The talking is almost always nonsensical, and the noises never make sense for where I am, or in general for that matter. It's just something I've grown accustom to.


In case you're ALSO wondering, yes something did happen in my childhood that contributed to me having audio hallucinations, but, no I don't want to talk about it. It honestly has nothing to do with any of this and I'd rather not think about it.


I just thought that I should let you guys know all of this. So yeah, I'm going to probably stay up for the rest of the night... sleep well everyone, and stay safe!


SINcerely,
Raz